April 12 2012! Was funnnnnnn. No school! yay, no school tomorrow too cause I’m not going, bwhaha. But today was fun. Went GPO and shopped around for shoes and slippers and other junkies. I FINALLY got “The Host” by Stephanie Meyer, yay! I’m so excited to read it, but it’s pretty old >< eh, whatever. I want “Ms. Peregines home for peculiar children” It seems scary, based on the cover, but I heard it was like a mystery book where this boy finds out what happens to his grandpa after he dies and stuff. I also wanted Sarah Dessen, but the bookstore didn’t have ANY … ANY of her books, THEHELLLLL !

okay bye.

Without me you wouldn’t know them, you wouldn’t have them. Such pathetic people now-a-days. I don’t really care, but it’s just frustrating. I’m done with it all. I’m done being too nice, never gets me anywhere. People are just assholes! But being too mean makes you a b. Nothing I do is good enough. But whatever, I don’t care. I’m not gonna go crawling to you. I’m done trying to stay and find a place in peoples’ lives. It’s just useless. Yeah random rant.

Well, yesterday was kinda an off day? Forgot to charge my phone so it was dying, yeah. In 2nd period I was randomly calling people, not me, but my phone. Cause my buddy was absent and she’s the only one I actually talk to in that class, well other people too, but they were busy, yah. I was just playing with the ball and the on/off button and the phone green button thingy, yeah. I was bored and I wasn’t looking, then it started calling people. hahaha! so funny. When I looked, I was like OHHH SHOOT! then yeah. whatevs. 4th period was okay, kinda lost of the negative thingy. The other two postulates, but it was still fun. Then 6th period was like WHACK! This guy that usually talks, and sits next to me was with this other girl. It’s kinda a long story, but her friend was absent, yeah nvm that story. It’s too long, but he was with her, and I was like the heck, you only go to her when her friend is absent? Then you only go to me when her friend is here ?! TWO-FACED! yeah, just one of those thought moments. I didn’t actually say that. Then he came to me and was like “ZUP!” and I was like ” We are no longer friends, ditcher. GO away! ” Then he was trying to talk to me but I kept ignoring him, then he was like  ” nvm. You don’t like me, then I don’t like you” and then yeah. 5-10mins later, he comes back and apologizes. hahaha, It was soo funny, I didn’t actually mean what I said, I was just kidding as usual, but yup.  boring post.

I miss this blog, but I was lazy to blog. hahaha

I actually miss you, is that weird ? I miss talking to you. I miss looking at my phone and getting excited when I see your name. I just miss you. But now that we barely text, it’s hard to. It’s fine though. I was fine, and I am fine with or without you now. It is what it is ….

Should have I said something to you , yes. But did I, no because I didn’t want to look weak and vulnerable because I’ve done that way too many times and it got me nowhere. That made me learn to just keep everything to myself.

I’m following people I don’t even remember clicking “follow”

weird.

I haven’t read in forever! Well, barely. I FINAAAALLLLY finished the Lauren Conrad
” L.A. Candy ” book. That took me forever and I finally finished it. I’m not as commited to reading as I was during summer, but I want to again. It’s so FUN ! yes, I’m weird like that, oh well. But overall, it was a good book. I didn’t really like it because it reminded me of ” The Hills ” but a book version. I don’t know if it was meant to be like that, or I’m interpreting it wrong, but I like it. I gave it a chance, lol. Don’t get me wrong, I loved the book. but .. On to the next one ! That’ll probably take me twice as long =( frkn tumblr and youtube and internet in general, I can’t get my read on. But yay !

I didn’t leave your life if you’re saying that, which you probably are.
I simply stop trying to find a place in your life, and trying everything I could possibly do to stay in it, but you never gave any effort back. You treated me like nothing, so yeah.

adios.

Silly me … I thought I’d try to fix it, but you gave me a the same reason as to why I stopped trying in the first place.

LESSON DEFINATELY LEARNED. not going down that road again forsure this time.